Ever since I can remember, Ive never been too comfortable about being in this human body, nor about being on this planet. Its always been too foreign to me. I know that some people may find that odd, but its the way Ive always felt. Whenever I tried to find a niche, or attempted to find a place where I had a sense of belonging on this planet, it seemed I only got more anxious, more worried about the future and how to accomplish my goals.
Ever since I can remember, Ive never been too comfortable about being in this human body, nor about being on this planet. Its always been too foreign to me. I know that some people may find that odd, but its the way Ive always felt. Whenever I tried to find a niche, or attempted to find a place where I had a sense of belonging on this planet, it seemed I only got more anxious, more worried about the future and how to accomplish my goals. You know, on this world its a major decision about what you are going to do in life, what youre going to become when you grow up, or how to fit in and find approval or acceptance from others. So when it came time to make a decision about what course of study I had to take in school, I simply felt empty and could never really make up my mind. It seemed that there were few things that seemed worth it or that did not end with disappointment, or the need for constant revision and change.
Even when I was a small child I would question life and wonder why Id been placed inside the body I had. Or why I was looking out from inside this body instead of some other body, a body that was perhaps better looking, stronger, or something else. Or why others had bodies that were a different color, or had physical problems. No one seemed to have the answers for me, not even the church my parents attended.
In the unbiased perception of youth, we often question things in a way that can make adults feel ill-at-ease, or are unable to answer. Yet, we grow up while being trained in the opinions and bias of others, and their lack of understanding, centered around judging things on the basis of externals, or that which we perceive only with our senses. Then we often adopt that limited perspective that is given to us. Fortunately, some of us come through the training and once again inquire into the nature of things and the internal mysteries we wondered about while young.
I remember when I was about 4 years old I would wonder why we have to breathe and eat to maintain this body, because if you dont do that your body dies. I thought it was such a fragile situation. And then after eating, you have this thing politely called "the call of nature" that forces you to use the toilet, and not always at the most wanted times. Certainly a messy business. Ive never gotten used to that. I mean am I being weird here, or is this really considered the natural way things are supposed to be? Of course, its natural as long as we have this material body, which is quite an amazing machine. But then the question arises, is being in such a body the natural way we are meant to be? Is this as good as it gets? I feel that there are others among you who have also questioned things in this same way. Am I right?
Another thing I could never understand is why we have to sleep a certain number of hours of the day just because we are in these material bodies. Yes, yes, I know that the body requires that kind of care, and that there are many people on this planet who think that eating and sleeping are some of the greatest joys of life. Yet to me it never really seemed natural, almost like a waste of time, and another limitation forced on us by this material body. And feeding the body necessitates so many agricultural endeavors. Have you noticed that most of the activities and economy of this world are based on this need to eat? For example, farmers first have to grow the food, hope that the weather is good and that no droughts develop, then harvest it, then ship it and exchange it for money or other goods. Then for the consumer there is the need to acquire the food, cook it, and only then can you eat it. And then if it is not cooked or kept properly, you get sick. To me it seems like such a tricky ordeal, which most people of this world simply consider part of the normal course of events. These are just some of the reasons why Ive not felt completely at home here on this planet. Of course, I know there are going to be those who will try to tell me that this is the way things are supposed to be, but I just dont buy it. I know that this planet is a magnificently beautiful and amazingly functional place in which to exist. Yet I, along with others here, have always felt that there was a better place with a higher level of life, where things dont require so much endeavor to survive.
As I grew older and started to perceive my spiritual identity within this body, I came to understand why when I was a small child I had such doubts and questions about life on this planet. I began to understand and realize that there were other realms of existence that made more sense to me. There were other domains of existence wherein eating solid food and sleeping are not so much required, nor are we forced to use a toilet. These higher grades of existence within much finer levels of consciousness, are areas wherein the gross physical desires or sensual needs and habits are not such an important part of life. I was able to understand that there were other forms of life out there that not only made more sense, but also of which I seemed to remember. Only then did I realize why I have never been so comfortable on this earthly plane of existence.
On this earthly strata, the fact that we are caged in material bodies makes us focus on the idea that bodily and mental pleasures are the goals of life. Even the act of sex, that most people on this planet can hardly do without, and the act of procreation itself is often based more on compulsions rather than on the focused intent of producing children. In such a case, we often see that these children carry the same desires within them from which they were born. Thereafter, their existence is not always based on an intentional purpose, but more on finding the means of fulfilling the same sort of desires they inherited from their parents, the same desires that produced them in the first place. However, there are other levels of existence wherein procreation does not require such a physical act in which there is the exchange of bodily fluids which produces a body into which another living being is forced to enter. On such higher levels the power of ones concentrated thought alone can be enough to produce children.
Another limitation regarding life on Earth is that in this human body expressing ourselves is like trying to talk through a sack, and speak in a way that others who are also in such containers can understand. And to perceive what is around us is like being in a vessel which has cameras, microphones, and other forms of sense perception that are wired in a way to bring the signals from the outside of that sack to the core of our consciousness, which exists deep inside the container. Our perception and understanding of our experience thus depends on the ability for such circuitry to function, as well as our interpretation of the signals we receive. If the wiring or center of such operation, the brain with all its nerves, becomes even slightly dysfunctional, it changes everything in regard to performing or understanding our experience in this body.
This brings us to another point of consideration of life on Earth. In this human body we have to try and understand language which is the basis of how we communicate to others. We have to understand our own disposition, feelings and perception of things, and then externalize that perception to others through the use of our own ability to use language, which itself can be limited by the number of words and phrases we know, or our own basic knowledge of things. Then after we voice our thoughts, those with whom we are talking also have to take in what we have said, and churn that through their own understanding of language and their own ways of perceiving things in order to relate with what we have expressed. This whole process paves the way for many possible misunderstandings between people.
Furthermore, with the constant changes that this material b
